passing thoughts

…………………………………. Gosh! I can’t write a single thought…….. I’ve been staring at the screen blankly for more than two hours………. Worst! I feel like I’m drank without the hooch.

Oh my…oh my… I used to write winning piece in an hour with at least 300 words in a given topic.(lol…way mokontra …hehehe). Does it mean the day of reckoning has come?

I don’t know…I don’t know… Perhaps, because I was too busy with matters of consequence and I neglected to develop such passion or… is it part of growing old? I thought depreciation are for things and not for human interest but nevertheless,I feel like I’m getting dumber and  dumber as time pass.

I knew I can’t anymore draw nor write stuff like I used to… ooops! I almost forgot, I think I should also include computing without the aid of calculator and formulas in my excel files.hehehe. I guess they were just part of the passing passion of a disoriented youth who had so much time to waste.By the way, do I really had that talent? Naaaah…I think i just made it up to boost myself .

On a serious note,whatever it is, I feel life plateaued for the longest time, maybe  as a result for being passive to everything that surrounds me or for favoring simpler things to avoid complication without knowing that it slowly bring things that I passion in my youth to its doom.

Why does all these thoughts sink in… I guess, I just made a decent decision of a grown up man which receives the accolades and bravados to some who have known me. But  again,sorry to disappoint ‘coz I’m very gullible and I am taking another detour to add not just days but years of my wasted youth.Hehehe… sorry folks.