Assignment and Solitary Wandering

Time runs swiftly yet it wasn’t left unnoticed for it is the longest month I ever had. My feeling hasn’t change a bit since I first set foot at the airport holding my one way ticket and realizing the fact that just sink in— @#%*_ _ _ _! It’s for real.

Shrouded with doubts my jovial nature made a sudden flip and a bizarre feeling runs into my spine that strip all happiness and wallow to abysmal longing for reason you simply don’t know.

Fast forward, It’s been a little over a month and my intrepid side help me endure my stay. Though I’m constantly receiving messages of concern, warning, advice and all sorts from friends but still they prove of little help.

The only alternative to overcome such feeling is to bank on the little pleasure Zamboanga has to offer like enjoying the gastronomic seafood indulgence, savoring the smell of the unspoilt fresh sea breeze and learning a handful of words from their peculiar dialect.Though all these provides only a temporary refuge from nostalgia.

But the best thing I had here— is it slacken the pacing of my absurd lifestyle. If before I am used to sleep for a few hours or even less for a lot of unnecessary stuff to do. Here it taught me to languish on a terribly idle time which give me more time to relax, rest or simply stare blankly on the ceiling which is sometimes torturing.

In a way, I was able to draw some plans for I never really had for ages ‘coz I stop having one after realizing that my childhood dreams were a fancy and at an early age the real world give me the taste and taught me the art of compromising.  Thus I turned into the type who just let fate unfurl what store and just live with it.

Silly also some crazy stuff flooded in like developing an allergy to top on a number I already had and hating the words "further notice" for it always gaves me a goosebumps and cringed my tummy every time I heard it these days. _ _ _ _! I should have killed the one who introduce it to the corporate world.hehehehe.I guess my mind just went berserk— if this is what they called intoxicating solitude then I think  I finally had a taste of it .